Here I Go Again

Truth be told,I miss someone,really bad
I miss getting those late-night phone calls,and actually falling asleep while he was still talking
I miss getting ridiculed by him.
So bad,that I actually feel a pang whenever I think of him
Yknow,the feeling you get when someone just handed you a packet of Sour Skittles but snatched it back?No?Well,then,humour me
I don't care when people said he wasn't good-looking or that he was a bit too young for me.Who said I was looking for somone with goodlooks and an empty heart?And,age is just a number
Malas nak suka orang
Taking back everything I said
Boys are unpredictable and always associated with the word complicated
Dayana asked me if I had powers,what'd I do with said powers?
Abuse them of course,even better if I could read minds (preferrably,boys' minds)
So,when you come up to me one day and ask me Who's On Your Radar Now?
Please don't be shocked when I shoot you the killer stare and shrug my shoulders
Note to self :This is a cover-up,something I'll tell myself over and over again,until I get over the fact that he'll never like me (this is not about the boy mentioned above,this is someone else,keep up with my pace!)

A leaf Must Fall

How heartbreaking is it?To see the person you love across the table from you and lose him just a few hours after that?

As morbid as this may sound,it seems like every year,one student from TTDI passes away,tragically

True,I didn't know him personally but one's death can affect people in every way

Condolences to the family of Allahyarham Hafiz Abdul Aziz,who passed away in Cherating

Alfatihah

Easy Come Easy Go

Is it just me or is the trend nowadays to hate people for no reason?
I expected something a little more mature,coming from a guy of eighteen years-old
You barely know me,you DO NOT know me at all come to think of it
I haven't said anything to you,never mouthed anything as well
So what the fuck were you thinking when you told my friend you don't like me for NO EFFING reason?
She knows me better,she's known me for 2 years for God's sake
Kau ingat dia tak bgtau aku aa?Babi puki lancau palat!
I've never said a single thing about you!Never ever mentioned your name to anyone pulak tu!
Bodoh sial,fikir sikit aa,dah lepas SPM kan,mesti boleh fikir
Dah aa womenizer tak jadi sial,malu gila babi
I'm not gonna say anything bad about you,why should I stoop down to your subzero level?
Before I go,RAFIEQA (nama dah aa macam perempuan,gila menyakitkan ego sial),if you're wondering,most people don't like you either
You're walking on utterly thin ice

Bon Anniversaire

(YOUR SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY WAS THE BOMB!)

January 25th,2400 hours



Happy Seventeenth Birthday,Ilya Qistina
I'm at a loss for words,which often happens when I try to talk about my bestfriends
Really,what do I say?To list out all the things we've done together,all the misunderstandings we had,all the conversations and pep-talks would be out of the question
As,I'd take up half my day and would probably ramble on and on and on (and on)
So here goes
Truth be told,the first few times I talked to you,I wasn't so fond of you
You made me feel intimidated (Stop laughing Ilya!I know you're laughing!)
And back then,your comments really got to me,made me blow my top off
Which resulted in many misunderstandings,and I thought I would never get along with you
Fast forward two years ahead,and I can't live without you teasing me,can't live without your pep-talks,can't live without you to drive me around hahaha
The thing I love most about you is how you tell me things I need to hear,rather than the things I want to hear
And our pep-talks,I still think we can add "MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKER" onto our Fallback Career List
You were one of the few who made me feel better about myself when a certain someone was hooked on a girl so fast after breaking up with me
And ah,that pep-talk we had on Sarah's roof at 12am hahaha
Which brings me to the subject of fooling around (No,not THAT kind of fooling around)
Yeah,I'm as comfortable around you and the rest more than I am with my own family
When I see a picture of an animal,a tiger if you must,opening their mouths and tongues visible,I think of you
Because that's what you're fond of,screaming and opening your mouth with your tongue rolled out
You were also the person who made me like mushrooms again
And by the way,you're one of the most prettiest,most stylish friend of mine
I envy your hair,even felt like tearing them out once or twice hahaha
Dont ever,even for a second,doubt your beauty *cue aww-ing*
You see,I haven't written about most of the things we do together and things that remind me of you and all that
Trips to Secret Recipe almost every other weekday,rummaging through your kitchen cupboard,raiding your closet,inside jokes and signature expressions
Like I said,its too much for me to handle and trying to pick the best one from my memory is harder than I thought it would be
Kakak Qis,I wish you love and here's to many more birthdays
Keeping my fingers crossed that we'll be in wheelchairs,attempting to blow out 80 candles with the clan

With love,the person they never suspect (the short one)

Rocky Acap Bolboa

(See?Acap's already eyeing Ilya's pasta!)

It's January 21st and you're already seventeen years-old
Which is a year away from being officially legal(tengah jealous and clearly stating the obvious)
Technically,I've been seeing your face since primary school
You were the boy who said "Awak tak boleh pinjam buku agama kita,nanti mama kita marah" in the First Grade
And you still sometimes say that nowadays,but under different circumstances
Truth be told,you're one to crawl onto people's skin but you've been a great friend
And a source of entertainment,if you want to look at it that way
There are days when I want to strangle you for being so authoritative in school
But if you hadn't thought me a bit of that Biology 10 minutes before the exam,I'd have been screwed like a turkey
You've been patient (most days) when I poke you with my pen and ask you to help me solve equations and all that
And your attempts to cheer me up when I thought my sixteenth would be a flop
And those songs we came up with in class last year,whazzitcalled?The Y Song hahaha
Growing up in a household overflowing with eostragen (with the exception of your dad),
It hasn't really surprised me that you're constantly the only male among a throng of girls
Remember when we were fourteen,and we made you cry in class?Hahahaha dear God
I can't quite recall the reason but it was downright hilarious (only after you calmed down,sebelum tu serious cuak)
In my opinion,you're famous for how you eat like an elephant but you always turn down people's offer at first!
Sha:Acap,nak sikit my food?
Acap:Takpa
Sha:I know you want some
Acap:KK,pass me a spoon
Sooo,what I'm trying to say is (and seems pretty obvious now) you've been a great friend
It's been tough but I still love youuu more than scarves and berets
Here's to many more birthdays,loother
xxx

p/s you're not gonna get an un-surprised birthday party baybay ;p